Senzo Meyiwas's daughter misses her father

October is a bittersweet month for Mandisa Mkhize.

This is the same month that she and late football player Senzo Meyiwa got married. It is also the same month that Senzo was shot and killed at Kelly Khumalo’s home in Vosloorus, east of Johanneburg.

Mandisa, who has a seven-year-old daughter with Senzo, took to Instagram to share a heartbreaking message about her late husband. In the message, she wrote about how difficult it is to explain to their daughter that her father is never coming back.

1st of October it was suppose to be our anniversary,it was a beautiful day but God plans can never be changed. That moment when you want answers and your child is asking u questions.where do I start trying to explain heaven and why people go there. Why they don’t come back? Try and explain that to a 7yr old and still have straight face acting strong and not cry but deep down u feel like screaming and telling her I also don’t understand why good people die . Its supoz to be the happiest day . 😭😭😭😭😭😭

A photo posted by mandisa mkhize (@mandisamkhize01) on Sep 30, 2015 at 10:05pm PDT