Legendary hip-hop artist, Slikour has been taking strides in his career as a rapper, writer, media enthusiast and a taxi boss, and although it might have seemed as if he had everything in check while he was in the limelight, he says there was a point where he grew tired of the industry.
Depression can gradually creep on you without you recognizing it, especially if you have a busy schedule, and this is exactly what Slikour said happened to him when he started feeling tired of the limelight and fame.
In conversation with Riky Rick in a recent interview on SlikourOnLife, the rapper revealed that he unknowingly went through a period of depression: “I knew I wasn’t taking time, I stopped loving things, a lot of people don’t know that, I just feel like: ‘Argh I’m tired’...maybe I needed a break ten years ago, but I was also tired but I never knew, I never knew I was depressed also. I was depressed...now that I know what it was...I never knew in 2010 that I was depressed, 2011 to twelve, I just needed to get away from everything, but I just thought that I’m just tired,”
WIth the rapper having been one of the artists that were at the forefront of leading the hip-hop industry in Mzansi, he said that there was a point where he just wanted to fade out of the industry by just staying silent.
“Because I was vocal, I was almost leading this hip-hop world at the time, I was part of the spokesperson for it, I felt that I couldn’t feed that beat anymore, I felt that if I came out and said anything people would see...it’s like I’ve been putting on this facade...so I felt that maybe I needed to die silently and people need to forget about me and maybe because I needed to survive, let me find something else on the side…”
After taking a break by going back to his roots, visiting his mother and reconnecting with himself again, Slikour reflects on the humbling experience.
"I needed to start thinking like I was starting again, I needed to think like I never had money...I needed to think about what was it like when I was just waking up to bread, peanut butter and jam every day...I needed to get my thoughts in that process because that’s when it was just me and I was happy with nothing because now I had an expectation and entitlement but no one cared when I was eating bread and butter in my mother's house when I wasn’t paying anybody anything. I needed to start thinking like that again, which was humbling it was painful, it was frustrating, it felt like I was useless..."
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